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Friday, 31 July 2009

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    Gut Symmetries
    By Jeanette Winterson
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    where does the good go.

    As of recently I have been a dull light. My ideas are buried and unexamined in the far corers of my mind and my opinions are shallow and emotionless. I used to be challenged; even if by myself. I have no time for things anymore, to be challenged or to challenge. I'm consumed by my jobs, gaining money, saving money, spending money, breathing money, living money, my vision is tinted green and everything is less beautiful. I need something bigger than me. You are lost, he is gone, they are far, and she is new. Stable, I am too stable; put me in danger all ready. Rip me apart, push me away, kick me out, boil my blood, PUSH ME. Slap me,wake up my nerve endings and maybe they connect to my spirit. Make me go again, I say to everyone. I need to spend more time alone, saying these things to me. I can free me, push me, challenge me, hurt me, love me, hate me, fix me, and make me, better than anyone. It's a shame I don't know myself well enough to start conversation anymore. It's time to go.

Thursday, 11 June 2009

  • wake up!!!!! shit is hitting the fan!

    we are now officially in a level six according to the World Health Organization.(swine flu BS...read up on the truth of this flu...not mainstream media lies.)

     This gives the government the right to put us in martial law (that's a bad thing kids, it takes away ALL of our rights completely .meaning; curfews, cops on the streets, guns and weapons taken away...catch 22 sort of thing)

     Do not take "mandatory" vaccinations! Take a second out of your day today, re read your rights in the constitution and do not give in to anything that limits or takes away those rights!!! This is real and serious shit. 

    The government is a tool of the people, not the other way around.

    Do NOT look the other way and assume everything will be okay tomorrow because it's getting worse everyday because we want to pretend that this shit is happening.

    Stand up now, it's getting close to being our last chance.

Monday, 01 June 2009

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    Visual and Other Pleasures (Language, Discourse, Society)
    By Laura Mulvey
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    lost it's point

    I came here to prove my worth. I came on promises I made to a father who's two years in the ground. I came here with intentions of success. I'm not worthless, I surely didn't break a promise, I haven't failed, but I haven't done much of anything else. I'm not failing but not failing doesn't coincide with success. I'm just staying even.  I'm not sad or mad at life or within life...

    last night me and sawyer were taking a walk at 11pm or 12pm around ashland. We talked about the beautiful houses, the porches we wanted to sit on and the ones we didn't. Where we would live and where we wouldn't, but the both of us concluded that we would not live in any of these beautiful houses or any of the mediocre ones in surrounding. That however amazing and settling and comforting it must be to live in those houses: we couldn't imagine breathing. How do they feel? Physically...how can their bodies feels? The house is rigid and plain; and beautiful but beautiful doesn't feel, beauty just invokes artificial feeling. And I felt bad for them; what a sad life of mediocrity. Well today I realized that I can't feel either, nor is my house beautiful.

    So, where does this leave me? It leaves me on my way to class. With stale, cheap coffee, bad breath, and sad texts from you explaining indirectly that we are in the same place, same exact place.

Sunday, 31 May 2009

  • hmph

    xanga is very uncomfortable now that it's so foreign to me. Ill spend some more time looking through things and getting reacquainted when I am no longer stoned. Then, then maybe I will ACTUALLY blog or whatever kids do on these things now-a-days.

Wednesday, 14 January 2009

  • so

    so I may start using this again,

    Im online more these days. I just have to find people again. and think of thins to write about.

    Im happy. life is on the up and up.

    ahhh xanga your always here for me with your digital love.

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